Retail Therapy

I wish I got the time to go and paint my nails even though they will get ruin very soon due to my work.

Somehow or rather, 当杨门女将的杨八妹真的很累。

No doubt, being strong and “never say die” spirit is something that is inbuilds within myself but I do have times when I want to allow myself to be weak.  

Brother, brother 够久了，也想变成姐妹。

当大家的brother，让大家开心，不计较被‘酸’，不介意别人拿自己开玩笑。

我是Ok的。只是久而久之，变得累了。

现在只想找个人给我靠。Don’t say anything, just let me lean on and fall back on.

My Partner says, he is lucky to have me around. If he is down, he know he can rely on me.

But when I look back, if I am down, who can I fall back on?

上吐下泻还要回来做preview的时候，我就知道。靠谁都不对。

很sad。最近我一直觉得很sad。I feel so down & low until I dun even give a damm about my brother.

Im losing the right channel to vent out. Drinking is not the way. Ktv is not the way. Sleeping is not the way. I know is very bad, but I just 拿我的 brother 来出气。Until he cannot stand me and talk to me today. Yah I know is wrong and this is not the way.

我只想静静的哭。不需要理由的。

我只是需要一个肩膀。不问我理由。知道我想哭的时候，借给我靠。

只是那个肩膀呢？

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不要再告诉我关于工作上的事情。

Let me just take my mind off work.